I heard this song today on the radio and cried the whole way home. This made me think about my Gramma and what she going through and what we are going to face together. I will have her back no matter what! I love you Gram!!!!
Friday, March 25, 2011
Rascal Flatts-I Won't Let Go Lyrics
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Tuesday, March 22, 2011
Stressed beyond belief
This has been such a rollar coaster ride since I fould out I was pregnant. I just wanna emjoy this experience and be happy, not scared to death everyday! I need to have faith and trust that God will keep us both safe. I told Steve this baby is stressing me out already and its only been 2mths.
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Monday, March 14, 2011
Friday, March 11, 2011
I'm going to be a MOMMY!
Since that day it has been an emotional rollar coaster. The concept of "waiting to tell everyone" flew out the window. We told my brothers, Lisa, Cheryl, Tracy, Ray, Alex, Lyd and the kids, Kris, Sue, Steve's brothers, Pastor, my Gram and John but I starting having these cramps pretty severe ones and I thought OMG here we go I am gonna lose the baby. I called and got into the doctors on Monday. She sent me for bloodwork and told me the cramps are normal for the 1st trimester. She said the bloowork results would be the best way to determine if its a viable pregnancy or not. So after 5 long scary days the nurse called and said "Congratulations your pregnant, your HCG levels are doubling and the doctor wants you to have a ultrasound". So Friday 5/11 at 9am I am going to have ultrasound done and I cannot wait to see my lil baby yolk sac :) The cramps have been getting less and less, I actually feel really good, a lil tired no morning sickness yet! I plan to announce it on FB and to the rest of my family and friends on Friday after the ultrasound. Afer the cramping starting I got scared and stopped telling people. I need to actually see my baby first. I have taken 5 pregnancy tests since I found out and YEP I am still pregnant LOL. It is so hard to believe that I something I have wanted, wished for and dreamed of my whole life is really happening. Steve and I have had many discussions about this pregnancy already and have decided we are going to take this one day at a time, and all we really care about it a healthy baby. Boy or Girl who cares! Don't ge me wrong I would LOVE to have a lil girl to dress up pretty .....but I love my Joshy and Dillon so much I can only imagine when its my own son how much love and joy it would bring. Steve would love a lil boy to play footbal with and stuff but when it comes down to it, we just want to be parents. We have our names picked out already, but hat will be kept a secret for awhile! I am scared to death I am not going to lie, I know without any doubt I will be a great Mother, look at the example I have had my whole life how could I go wrong??? I just don't want anything to go wrong with the pregnancy. I am on insulin injections now, my blood sugars spiked as soon as I got pregnant, so that has not been easy, but I will do whatever I need to do. I am excitied, nervous, happy, thrilled, and most importantly Thankful! Praise God for his blessings and I hope he watches over me and my lil baby and helps it to grow and be healthy. Anyone that could send some extra prayers up for Baby Shaver for the next 8mths would be greatly apprecaited ~ Thank You!
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Thursday, March 3, 2011
Tuesday, March 1, 2011
Why her I will never know
Life has a funny way of throwing you a curve ball when you least expect it. The past few weeks have been a bit emotional around here. We found out my Gram has early Alzhemiers diease, which is heartbreaking to me. She has been one of the three main characters in this play I call "LIFE", I alread lost one and now slowly over the next few years I will lose another. She already has changed so much, its like a totally different person (who is not my Gram) is in her body. Once in awhile she shows her face but not very often. I think sometimes this might be worse then cancer, I mean at somepoint she is going to look at me and not know who the hell I am. Since we found out it seems I have become her Mother and she treats my mom like her lil baby that she has to take care of. Alot of things are going to be changing around here within the next few months. She cannot be alone anymore, I need to be able to make sure is taking her meds and eating properly. I am not gonna lie it is frustrating and upsetting dealing with her sometimes, but I love her so much that there is NOTHING I would not do for her. We are going to sit down and discuss what we are going to do, but at some point soon she is going to be selling the house and moving into a double with Steve and I. She hates being in that big house by herself and I cannot run over there everyday, if she is next door or upstairs it will be alot easier and we can take care of things for her. I just pray God gives us all the strength to get through this. Its so hard for me to see her act like this she was always so strong, so in control of everything and now its like she is a child. I hope she will start taking the meds and that they will help her to stay steady for a long time to come. We need to get into a support group so we can figure out how to deal with this. I have so much more epathy for my cousins who have been dealing with this diease for a long time now. Two of my grandmothers younger sisters also have this and they seem much worse and it hurts me to because I love both of my great aunts dearly and to see them going through this is devastating too.
prayers are needed ~ Please
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