me at the NKOTB concert 6/14/09 15th row
pic I took at the 6/14/11 Nkotb concert
Coming to Buffalo May 28th 2011 and I got 4th row seats ~ Donnie your ass is MINE
Thursday, January 27, 2011
Monday, January 24, 2011
Its a new day
I am not sure WHY ~ but I feel like I got a new attitude and some motivation. I visited my cousins this weekend and had a great time. I was able to actually sleep 5hrs in a row, I laughed ALOT, I got to talk and visit with my cousins and my brothers. It was a good weekend that I needed. My cousin Sue recently lost like 30lbs and she looks great. So I feel motivated to get going and lose the weight and start feeling better. I have felt like crap for weeks now and I'm sick of it. I woke up this morning with a horrible headache and my back is KILLING me. I am gonna take some pain meds a hot shower and ride the stationary bike. Steve and I are going out for dinner tonight but I'm not gonna go hog wild. I need to lose 50lbs, get healthy and get pregnant and finally I truly believe I can :) If not for me but for my husband and my family.
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
Monday, January 17, 2011
Dillon is 3 years old
O my sweet Dillon turned 3 yrs old yesterday ~ I can't believe it! Seems like only yesterday we were at Mercy the day he was born. I was so honored to be able to be a part of his birth. I love him so very much and he is so fun to be around. Everyday something new and funny comes outta his mouth. I thank god for his sweet lil smile when he says "hi Aunt Stacy" it make me melt. Putty in his hands ~ I love you bubby
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
Bringin it back
I have alot of shit going on right now that I know I have to deal with but I don't want to. First and foremost the whole "weight issue" I know I need to lose weight but I cannot seem to find the motivation to do it. I tell myself every morning to be good, stick to the diet, excerise BLAH BLAH BLAH but I always seem to FAIL :( I know its because I am battling depression (again) I keep trying to keep myself from falling down that hole again but I am afraid I am losing the battle. Since Kenny died it has been a struggle to stay sane its seems. I worry constiently about my mom, about justin......I have these bits of insomnia. I wake up in the middle of the night and all I see is Kenny laying on the floor and I can't seem to shake that horrible image from my head. I can't begin to tell you how frustrating it is to FINALLY have everything I ever wanted and still be sad :( It hurts Steve because he feels like he is not doing his job and making me happy, when that is not the case at all, it has NOTHING to do with him. Which he does not understand. So my decision is this I know its because I got mad at God (again) for taking Kenny from us so I need to accept it and get back to church. Sunday is a busy day around here but I will be up and dressed and heading to St Pauls come sunday morning NO MATTER WHAT I will be ~ I will pray again everymorning that God gives me the strength to lose the weight and get healthy, and most importantly I think I need to start consuneling.........as much as I dont want to I think I NEED to.........Im gonna go back to school in Febuary for my Phlebotomy certification and get this life of mine back on track.........pray for me :)
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
If Dreams do come true
If what we dream really does come true I better watch out cause I'm gonna have my hands full. Everyone (including myself) has been dreaming about "TWINS" Cheryl, Tracy, Mom, Lydia, Justin, and even myself last night ~ That would be the greatest gift EVER but scary as hell too. I know I could do it ~ but the pregnancy would have me a parnoid lunatic. Anyway I just wanted to document this JUST IN CASE it comes true fingers crossed...........that dreams really do come true :)
Friday, January 7, 2011
Wednesday, January 5, 2011
How Olive Garden changed my LIFE
Thursday, Jan 10th 2008 as I was driving in my truck on a cold snowy night I can remember actually saying outloud " Don't get your hopes up, at least you get a free dinner out of it" I pulled into the Olive Garden parking lot full of anticipation, as I stood inside the door waiting for him to arrive I was nervous, excitied and hopeful, as he walked around the corner and I could acutal see his face, I thought OMG he is really handsome. He gave me a hug, told me I looked beautiful, opened the door and we started our date. As we sat and talked the conversation just flowed no akward moments of silence. We laughed and talked and he was so open with me. Anything I asked him he answered without hestation. His eyes were the bluest I had ever seen, I noticed the way his whole face lite up when he smiled :) I never in a MILLON years would have thought I was sitting across the table from my future husband. I was in total shock when I realized that he had drove his scooter in the snow to come meet me. I thought to myself "is this guy crazy"........he walked me to my truck and kissed me very sweetly, gave me a hug and said "thank you for such a great time" I got in my truck and sat there and watched him go over to his scooter ( it was snowing and freezing mind you) he layered up jacket upon jacket and drive off. I was laughing out loud, thinking "what the hell is wrong with this guy" I got home and told Mom all about him she nick named him "scooter steve" I was not sure what this was gonna turn into, but I sure did have FUN. He sent me a few emails and we went out a few more times, called each other often. Eventually I realized why he had a scooter (to save money) he had a dream and he was putting all his time, money and effort into making his dream become a reality. I was not to thrilled about driving us on every date let me tell ya, but I enjoyed being with him so much that it honestly started to not really matter.
He was with me everyday that he was not working, he would drive that scooter through snow storms, rain, hail anything just to be with me for a few hours. By March he told me he wanted me to be his girlfriend :) I was pretty damn excitied about that. The first year we went through our rough patches like everyone else, He was still living like a college student with not a care in the world. He told me he loved me and wanted to spend the rest of his life with me but his actions were not showing that, he was not changing anything. In December I had some medical issues come up, and I think it made him realize he did not wanna lose me.
On our 1yr anniversary he got us a hotel suite at Salvatore's and we went for a fancy dinner. During dinner he mentioned getting married, I said well I thought we would get married in Oct 2010, He said yeah I think that sounds like a plan. Within the next two months, Steve enrolled in college classes to become a machinist, used all his savings to buy my engagement ring, told the landlord he was moving out, purposed and bought a car. He said that he loved me more then anything in the world and all he wanted was to be my husband and start a family. God has blessed us ~ Steve has a wonderful job that he started right after our honeymoon as a machinist :) He turned his whole life around just to be with me......we started a new life together. I asked God to send me someone amazing, that I could love, trust and laugh with. He sent me all of that and soooo much more. He truly is the love of my life and my best friend. I tell him everything, even things I think he would rather I did not lol lol No matter what happens in this life from here on out I know that with Steve by my side its all gonna be alright.
So to all you ladies out there that think true love does not exist and that all the good guys are gone. Try and keep your head up and wait because when the time is right it will be soooo worth that wait. As we are approaching our anniversary I look back and smile on how far we have come. Monday it will be 3 yrs since that nigt at olive garden and I could not be happier. Guess where he is taking me for dinner Monday night ????
and that is how olive garden changed my life :)
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